I HOPE I JUST GO TO HEAVEN

Sooo.... I'm finally back on the blogging wagon. But, I don't think it matters if I blog on a daily basis or not because I don't think anyone reads this. Anyway on to the story that preceded wire tap on NPR.

The story was actually a short story called "Subjunctive" by David Eagleman. It starts off with this line:

"In the afterlife you are judged not against other people, but against yourself.
Specifically, you are judged against what you could have been."

On my way home from a usual, ridiculously long day of work at Feminist Inc. I had no choice to ponder this point. It made me think about the person that I could have been at this point. I mean after being alive for 25 yrs. so far, I could have made a ton of different choices in my life.

What if I had gone straight to a 4 yr. college instead of to Community College first.

Or if I didn't go to the Real R.U. but to one of the fake ones.

Or if I had a child by now. (which is totally possible)

Or if I decided to start a relationship, stay in a relationship, or even marry 'Sac', 'Scooby', 'Brainiac' or 'Cocoabutter'

What if i decided to embark on a serious acting career (I mean, I was good at it).

Or if I didn't take this dead end job with Feminist Inc.

How different would I be? Would I be a better or worse person? I think that at this point in my life I am at a good spot. I am happy with myself. But, there are always the what ifs?

The story goes on to say that the after life is much like this life. Just filled with alternate yous. Better yous, Worse yous, and then there is the actual you living with all of these versions of yourself. For me, I think I just might have to kill myself again. Hopefully I'll make it to heaven or at least a better afterlife. But, with that what if I landed myself in a worse afterlife? Should I take my chances with this one?

I don't know if I could deal with the other me's. I don't know if I want to know how things would have been different. I mean with the worse me's it would be great. Kind of on the "Woah... glad I made that decision" feeling. Who doesn't like the feeling of knowing that the choice you made was the right one? But on the other hand the better me's would drive me to drink... heavily!!!!! I would rather not know how good a different choice would have turned out for me. I guess it's a double edged sword. With all of this... I hope I just go to heaven!

What are your thoughts?

Listen to the story: www.cbc.ca/wiretap/index.html?copy-audio Season 6 "A Better You"
Read the story: www.bookofjoe.com/2009/02/subjunctive-by-david-eagleman.html
Get the book: "Sum: Forty Tales from the Afterlives" By David Eagleman

Stay Tuned!

EMBRACING BEING 80

So... If you know me at all you would know that I listen to NPR a lot. I used to think that National Public Radio was for 80 year old women and Vietnam war vets but in recent months I find myself an avid listener. There's nothing better than being abreast on whats going on in the world. I don't care what anyone says... I like listening to news radio as a 25 year old woman and if that makes me old... well whatever!

In addition to the news there are also some other short programs that come on later my favorite being "Wire Tap" which came on tonight. I initially was interested in tonights show because there were two guys talking about how to shed some quick pounds. These were not at all serious tips. By far they were the most ridiculous tips I've ever heard. Cut your hair, floss really well (because plaque is surprisingly heavy), something about filing your nails down to the bone, and sleeping (which i felt was the most outrageous). The reason behind the sleeping was that your body metabolizes while you sleep which is true but he went on to say "why do you think people in comas have such amazing bodies? I mean have you ever seen a fat guy in a coma". Which is freekin hilarious hence the reason why I wanted to listen.

Even though I started to listen for the weight story I got much more out of the one the preceded.

Now that you're wondering what the story was I'm gonna go to bed. I had a long day. Write all about it tomorrow. Stay tuned!

INITIATION TO BLOGGING

Sooooooo..... I have been thinking for a while... "Sayum you should start a blog". But I didn't know why I wanted to start one. Which made it pointless to me. I didn't want to write a blog because I'm unbelievably narcissistic and just wanted to hear, or better yet... see myself talk (or think...). I'm really just doing it for myself to keep a record of my thoughts. I know I could keep a journal but I don't like the physical act of writing. I mean when you write you have to be sure of what your writing or else you have tons of scribbles and white out marks on your paper. If it's lined paper the white out covers the line in that spot and makes the pen look different. I'm way to indecisive (and a bit of a perfectionist) for all of that. Typing is so much easier, and if I can share it with my friends and get feedback... well hey even better!

With that said on to a topic. I struggled with this part. I have a plethora of thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis. For any one of these thoughts I may ponder on it for a minute or think about it for the majority of the day. I decided that this is my blog so i can write about whatever the hell I want. There's no one to tell me that I can't jot down anything that I'm thinking about. So this will mostly be about current issues, things that happen to me during the day, my horoscope (which tends to be very interesting and surprisingly accurate), subjects and concepts that I find interesting, and other general topics, and anything else that is suggested to me to write about. That is totally a run on sentence, but it doesn't matter because this in my freekin' blog!

I feel that I must warn anyone who does not know me that I am an ass. A sassy ass. Most of the time I just use the word sass or sassy to disguise me being an ass. It sounds more delicate and puts a little sugar coat on my bitchy/assy-ness (yea that's not a real word but I'm sure I'll be using it again). Seriously tho I rarely censor myself unless I am around small children, or at work (when I said freekin' earlier i wasn't censoring I just like the word better). Well... not even all the time at work. I think I got "talked to" about it before (when you work with all women you get in trouble for the dumbest shit).

I guess that's all I have to say for now. Stay Tuned!